I put every inch of myself in this record and also it's visuals. I know this song is different than what you'd hear me play on guitar or with my band, but I really wanted to share and explore a radically unique genre that showcases my bold style as an artist.
The concept began in middle school during the years I started making music. Flash forward to college and through lots of changes and periods of diving head first into songwriting, my first song came to life.
Working in the studio from NY to LA was the most challenging and fulfilling learning experience I've ever faced as a human. Ideas were killed, melodies/chords were changed, and inspiration was lost along the way. But experiencing what I thought was failure only opened up new doors of opportunity and I started seeing a new vision and life of the song come into form, which I welcomed and embraced every step of the way.
From a folky pop song written on guitar, to bouncing ideas over the course of several months, to finishing the record in LA— we created a record that I adore. With my love for pop music being the thread through it all- this record was a deep exploration into studying the points of intersection between left field Indie and commercial radio pop musicians - specifically the collaborations in the 70's and early 2000's! Some big inspirations for the musical vibe and vocal character were Melanie Martinez, Halsey, Billie Eilish, Ellie Goulding, and Taylor Swift.
MUSIC VIDEO:
When I was first concepting this video, I realized I wanted to tell a story centered around having faith in the face of defeat from being bullied as a young child— as well as what that evolution might look like. To feel the sadness, anger, peace, joy, and love. The quiet moments AND the loud moments.
As a shy little girl/only child, making friends and avoiding getting picked on was the hardest thing for me to overcome in grade school. It wasn't until I got older that I was able to understand that its okay to fully be myself no matter who sticks around.
Its about transforming trauma into empowerment through self awareness and reflection. Its about giving love to all the parts of you that you've shadowed. It's about being connected to everything that makes up who you are and who you decide to become. It's a chaotic evolution of how my past, and future are connected through my memories and intentions.
Healing is non linear & the journey may be challenging but it's meant for you to experience it all in the process of coming back to yourself and your power. Its a message to anyone who has ever been bullied that there are guiding lights everywhere inspiring us to continue showing up and authentically being ourselves.
Thank you & happy listening🙏️☯
